I have met a lot of people who believe they were born a century to late or a century to early. It is not uncommon to fantasize about living in another time and another century. The only problem with daydreaming is sooner or later you have to return to the real world. I must admit life is not always perfect in the real world. Read The Pilgrimage and try to imagine that this soldier went though and how he learned to make lemonade when life kept giving him lemons.
You may be feeling the way the soldier felt when he lost everything he considered to be very near and dear to him. Maybe this book be a guide to help you conquer whatever challenge you are facing.